That probably sounds sad, doesn’t it. 36 years old, and never been married. (I’m only 4 years away from 40, dang it!) I have known a lot of people over the years that struggle with not being married past the time when most of their friends have tied the knot. I guess I’m just not one of those people, because being single is something that has never been hard for me.
When I have heard people saying things like “I want to get married so bad” when they aren’t even dating anyone, I just haven’t ever been able to relate. I haven’t ever felt that way. When I’ve had relationships that were going well and marriage might have been a possibility, sure, yeah, marriage was something that I wanted. But I’ve never had a strong craving for it when I’m outside of a relationship.
And to be 36 and single? Shouldn’t that really bother me? Maybe it should, I don’t know. But when it boils right down to it, I don’t really feel like much is missing in my life. It is very fulfilling. I love my work, I love my hobbies, I love my surroundings. I have a great family, and great friends. I have opportunities to learn and grow all of the time. I get to do the things that I enjoy. And I don’t feel a lack of love or companionship. There isn’t a lot about my life that would change if I could just snap my fingers and have everything made perfect.
Not that I wouldn’t like to find a woman that I could love, and would love me in return, but that just doesn’t seem to be in the cards right now. Heck, I haven’t even met someone I could ask out for several years now. But that is pretty much outside of my control, so it doesn’t keep me up at night. I know that marriage is a wonderful thing when you find the right person. But two people it does take, so I don’t worry about the half that is outside of my control. And I make the best of every day that I have available to me. And that makes me happy.
So even though I’m not married, I have a good life. No, scratch that, I have a great life. Sure, it could be better with someone to share it, but it sure isn't half bad now.
